Hey Obama the recession isn't over! etc.

Warning**** this blog is random and at times comfusing as the stories don't totally relate to one another and are my random thoughts *** proceed with caution

I don't have TV as of now.. I don't watch much cable unless i am at the inlaws house. But I have heard this so called rumor that the recession is over and I just want to say "Hey obama how much did you pay the media to spout out that bullshit propaganda?" Did you get that as a buy one get one free deal when you boarded your billion dollar air plane to go god knows where to lay your lying ass down in an eygyptian cotton sheet covered bed just to go spout off a bunch of bullshit about how America has f***ed everyone over while we pay for it with our tax dollars that we wish we could divey up ourselves?? Congrats on the Nobel Peace Prize for making us look like assholes. Hey Obama why don't you give my friends who can't pay for daycare a couple million bc we all know they deserve it more than your sorry privileged ass! You know God forbid the ones in my life that are near and dear to me catch a f***ing break. No instead of enjoying their children they have to worry about where the next set of diapers are coming from. Or if they will just have to use the 5month olds diapers on their 3 year old because they can't afford them. Why?? Oh I don't know maybe because houses are over priced food is twice as expensive and gas flucuates from ridiculously expensive to absurdly expensive. So Obama when i quit getting phone calls from all the people I love telling me about how they wish they could provide better for their kids and families THEN maybe i will believe your bullshit lies about rainbows butterflies and peace. But for now. you all may be feeding africa but what the f*** about our own kids?!?

okay.... i am better now.. sort of

No but seriously I know it's not all his fault but it's very hard to hear almost all of my friends struggling to make ends meet. I just wish I could help them all but I don't know how.. If I could have the patience for it i would try and watch everyone's kids so they wouldn't worry about daycare and that way they would just be able to enjoy life more. But i must enjoy my own too. I feel selfish.. I am so fortunate God has provided me with a wonderful family and we aren't hurting. at least not right now. My son is healthy. my husband and I love eachother and hardly ever fight. I just feel like I could be doing something more for others but what I don't know yet.

Side note: Tried a new church, which I find ironic to mention in this foul language consumed blog posting however; We went to my friend Lara's church Life TV. and the message was about being consumed by the holy spirit and how you may think it's your conscience but it might be god talking to you. Anyway, the pastor said if you are being lead to do something and you ignore it nothing will happen but if what you are being lead to do or say doesn't hurt any one but may possibly help why not just listen to the voices in your head and do it.. well directly after church i went to go work on the rental house. some minor caulking around the doors. and on my way home I see this guy laying in his lawn staring up at the sky. My first thought was man that looks relaxing and how great that he can be 50 something and just enjoy the solitude of life in all it stillness by just laying in his front lawn not caring about what the neighbors may think. My second thought was: this never happens he is 50-60 years old maybe he had a heart attack and can't move. I get almost home and keep feeling convicted to go back and so i do bc of the sermon that morning. i approach the house and he is kneeling by the steps. i think wow he is really just taking it all in. gardening or something.. then he proceeds to crawl clumsly up the stairs i then get out of the car.. "Sir, are you ok?" i ask.. no reply I move closer.." Sir??" he looks back you can almost see the alcohol seeping out of his pores.. "Huh" he mumbles.. "Sir, do you need help? Is this your house?" "yes" i can bearly make out what he is saying. he fidgets with the knob to the house and I start to walk away.. he can't open the door so I return.. "Sir, can i call someone for you?" "who are you?" he asks.. " Just a neighbor" I say.. he messes with the door ignoring me so i decide to walk off just then he says " Yes..." "yes?? you want me to call someone??" i ask.. the door opens. he walks or rather stumbles in past a lady i have talked to once breifly. She shrugs her shoulders and waves me on...

i know anti climatic..

But what the heck are the chances.. how random that on the day of this particular sermon this would happen.

I just want to say to everyone. if you feel compelled to do something and it can only benefit others just do it. You never know what may happen. and if anything it might just make you feel good about your self. and i don;t know about you but I can always use a good pick me upper.

So final thought.. Don't worry where it's coming from. it will come. don't worry who it benefits just show the love. Count your blessings bc we've all got them. And if you are married be nice to your spouse they are your only true best friend they are the only ones who know you body mind and soul. So go hug your hubby and tell him you love him even if he makes you mad. Because we all know we try our damndest and we could all use some slack.

I love you bobby and thanks for trying a new church with me. and even though you are a maniac at times you do it for me babe.